What a good day today is! I received my 60 day coin today at my meeting! The first 28 days of that were pretty easy. When you are locked down 24/7 in rehab, it isn’t too hard to not think about or crave drinking. At least for me personally it wasn’t. When I left on September 28th, that is when things should have gotten more difficult. Thank God, for me, it hasn’t been that way. YET! That isn’t to say that it won’t get difficult at times. I am quite certain there will be days in the future when that will cross my mind.
I take it one minute, one hour, one day at a time. Cliche’ I know. It is true. For this drunk, I have to do it that way. I am so fortunate that I have a great group of people who support me and are there for me at the drop of a quarter. True, try to find a pay phone anywhere that takes quarters. Or for that matter just a pay phone period. You get the idea though. I have a great sponsor who is working with me on the steps in a way that works for me both spiritually and intellectually. I also have a great wife who has always been right beside me, through good times and bad. I would be completely remiss if I didn’t mention my friends outside of AA as well.
Most importantly, I cannot leave out my Higher Power. God has my back. And my front! We talk daily. Even with the support of AA, my wife and friends, there is no way I could make it through the day without Him as my Number 1. I hit my knees every morning and night. Not only to pray for sobriety today, but to thank Him for the gift He has so freely given me. These actions are something I recommend to everyone. Alcoholic or not. At first I didn’t know how to pray, much less what to pray for. I always seemed to pray when I was in a bind but never when things were going well. Our pastor and my sponsor both told me that when you pray, treat it as a conversation. It doesn’t have to be King James formal. Talk to Him like you would your best friend. Tell Him what you really want. Not just what you need. And when those things are given to you, be sure to thank him. It wouldn’t be possible with out Him.
As you can tell, I am very excited about today. I have God and all of you who see this to thank.
Thank You and God Bless You and all of the still suffering alcoholics and addicts still out there.